Been awhile.

So we broke up again.

Im goin crazy.
Love is literally making me sick.
Fever, cold sweats, runny nose, cough, ect ect

I crave closeness & love.

I wanna be the most important to someone.
I want all the attention from whoever claims they love me
I wanna be that one special person.
I wanna be the one & only.
The only person that stands in their world.

Yes, im very selfish.
But arnt we all in some way?

To have that kinda love not once but twice,
and to lose it twice...hurts me so deeply.
I should be happy I had it right?
But I miss it too much to be happy.